Without Reason

By: Toki

It started suddenly enough. It was a typical morning, like any other morning. I was tired, though still I knew I had to get up and get to work. I had been slacking a few days lately and poor Tai was left saddled with all the work that should be partly, if not all mine. I sighed, thinking of that as I slinked out of bed that morning, getting my robe on as I saw Toki had undressed me last night as he has a tendency to. I got my robe on, tying up the noose in the front and before I stood up, I looked over my shoulder. Toki still sound asleep, on his side, his hair over his eyes, his arm where I once was, his other arm bent under the pillow his head was resting on, in his boxers, the sheets around his waist. I smiled at the scene and then turned and got up and went to shower. I had my usual routine, brushed my teeth, showered, washed my hair clean, blow dried it, got my boxers on and then left the bathroom as I started getting dressed. Toki was still asleep in the same position I left him in before. Only this time, I saw his back, the tattoo inked into his fair skin covering his back like an average yakuza would have. I'm an oyabun and I don't have that. I couldn't tolerate the pain mostly...besides I had nothing to prove to anyone. I took my pick of suits from my closet, minding all of Toki's things since he was actually organized when it came to his clothes. Everything had a place, everything was color coordinated, his boots and sneakers lined up, one next to the other, all of them clean and new looking. His shirts were in order from summer to winter, color and sleeve length, then his pants, jeans, khakis, sweats, then his sweaters, sweatshirts, the random khaki or jean jump suit and finally coats. It was strange to see how everything was in immaculate order on his side of the closet yet he kept the rest of the apartment a mess. Anyway, I got my suit and brought it out of the closet, closing the door behind me as I started to get dressed. I took off my robe, getting my pants on first and then my shirt. I buttoned that up as I then tucked the tails into my pants and buttoned the pants up. Finally, I got up and picked a tie before I put it around my neck and left it there while I got some socks. I sat down on the foot of the bed, minding Toki since I didn't want to wake him and got my socks on. I then walked over to the mirror and began to tie up the tie when I saw Toki stir from the reflection of the mirror. He sat up and yawned his cute, kittenish yawn before he rubbed his eyes and then looked at me. He blinked slowly and then turned and almost tumbled out of bed as he went to the bathroom.

He came back a few moments later and walked over to me, putting his arms around my waist as I finished my noose up and I was about to get my coat on now that I had gotten my watch on and I was buttoning the cuffs of my shirt. He stopped me for a moment as he leaned his head on my shoulder and kissed the back of my neck. He said good morning to me, his body so close to me I could feel he was hard already. Never ever satisfied. I said good morning in return as I continued buttoning my cuffs as I said,

"Toki let go. I have to leave."

"Leave? Why?"

"I have work. I haven't been going lately and I know Tai need a break."

He wouldn't let me go, in fact he kept me close to him as he kissed the back of my shoulder and said,

"Go in late."

Saying no to Toki was always a difficult matter. I sighed, not wanting to give in yet at the same, wanting to give in. I rested my hands on top of his as I said,

"I can't."

But he already wasn't listening. It was nothing new. His hands slipped away from mine as he started unbuttoning the shirt I had just buttoned. He opened it just enough to slip his hand inside, his palm softly caressing my skin as I sighed and then grabbed his wrist and told him no. I tried telling myself, get away, just go, hurry up and don't look at him. But instead, when he made his second pass and started undoing my pants, I couldn't fight him. I made eye contact with him from the mirror and he smirked, knowing he won.

In a matter of moments I was back in bed, my mouth closed over by Toki's. He was working on getting my pants undone as we kissed. I put my arms around him as he broke away and sat up as he cursed at me for getting dressed before he got up. He tugged my tie loose as he started unbuttoning my shirt. I could tell he was getting frustrated because the buttons were small and delicate and he wanted to just tear it but I grabbed his wrists and I undid it. I wasn't about to kill my shirt because he couldn't get it undone. Happy with that, he went to my pants, undoing them the rest of the way as he started tugging them down and I raised my hips up to allow him. He got them off and tossed them aside somewhere as he pulled off my socks and finally my boxers as he sat me up. He took off his boxers as he laid back down and made me straddle him. Fucking Toki face to face was always different when I was on top. It gave me no different sense of power since he was still fucking me but it was different. I sighed deeply when I felt him enter me and it hurt like it always did, but it soon passed, his hands stroking me gently, his kissing encouraging me as he sat up and softly bit at my throat, his mouth moving the fabric of my shirt away since I didn't even take it off, just opened it. I could feel his hands on my thighs, stroking my skin as I put my arms around him again, pulling his hair back as I kissed him, telling him in between that I loved him. Because I did. There was no one else I would allow to do this to me, no one I would allow to get so close to me and no one else I could or ever will love as much as I love him. I feel him smirking once I start moving, my pants coming out louder, more exasperated. His tongue licked my lips as I had my mouth opened slightly, my eyes closed as I felt him. His hands were on my thighs, keeping me up until he felt I was fine enough and he laid us down. For a while, he stayed still, his mouth kissing my neck, his hair coming around my face as I reached up to it, pulling it back as I kissed his forehead. He looked up at me as his hand rested on my chest, his rough calloused fingers around my nipple as he kissed the space between my collarbones. I felt his breath on my skin as his tongue lavished attention on my throat. I whimpered slightly, raising my hips to get his attention. His fingers skimmed over my nipple again as he looked at me and brought his mouth close to mine as he softly kissed my now dry lips as he smirked again. His blonde bangs fell around both of us as I reached up and pulled them back and he began to move.

"Ahhh..."

It was the only semicoherant thing to come out of my mouth after that. I felt him began to move in and out of my body, my legs tensed up, drawn up beside his hips as he slowly started sitting up. He brought my now open legs and rested them over his thighs as he rested his hands on my knees. I let my hands drop down to the sheets as I coiled my fingers in them, sighing softly as I felt him sitting up and leaning forward slightly. I cried out, closing my eyes again as I felt him move directly where it felt best.

"Fuck..."

He cursed as his grip on my knees got a little tighter and he did it again, quicker this time as I tensed, feeling the pleasure from it as I cried out. He did it again as I closed my eyes. I could feel his hands travel down my tensed thighs, down between them since there was space before my skin met his and he finally touched me. I tensed again, closing my mouth as I grabbed the sheets tighter. His rough hands circled around my hard on and I cursed under my breath as he leaned over me and kissed my mouth and then smirked against my lips as he said,

"You're so sensitive."

I felt my face flush with color as I said,

"Shut up."

I tensed around him as he continued thrusting, his hands still on my most private of areas as I reached up and put my arm around his neck, pulling him closer to me as I kissed him, biting his bottom lip as he sucked on my top lip. We stayed that way for a while, me letting go of his lip when I had to moan. When his hands started to move up and down my shaft, I closed my eyes and clenched my hand across his back. He groaned into my mouth. With my mouth pressed against him, I softly said his name before I came. His hand let go of me as then thrust a few more shallow strokes and came. He sighed, his mouth coming off mine as he laid on top of me. I could feel him getting comfortable to go to sleep and I quickly shook him awake.

"Get off me!"

He mumbled something as I sighed and said,

"I still have to go to work."

"You still wanna go to work after all that? I didn't wear your ass out. Give me twenty minutes and I will."

I felt him smirk against my chest as I said,

"I am tired, but I have to go to work anyway."

He continued to not move as I said,

"Toki..."

"Don't go. Give him any excuse. Besides. It's your business. You don't need a reason."

I stroked his hair back as I saw the logic in that and stayed still. Damn him for making me stay home again. I held him close to me as I started dozing off and I reached up to my cuffs of my shirt as I undid them and looked at my watch. I saw it was half past nine by now, Toki sleeping soundly on top of me, my shower gone to waste and again I would be leaving Tai all the work. I couldn't even call him because I couldn't reach my phone since we were at the foot of the bed and my phone was on the night stand. I did eventually doze off and slept for another half hour.

I woke up later in the morning, on my side and without any extra weight on me. I saw I had sheets over me and I turned to see Toki laying beside me, on his back, his arm covering his face as he slept. He must have gotten up at one point as I slept. I sat up, shrugging off my shirt and tie as I threw them on the floor. Pointless getting up I swear it was. I was about to lay back down and sleep some more when my cell phone rang. I picked up the sheets and drug them up with me as I reached for my cell phone. Once I had it in my hand, I felt Toki's hand on my leg. I turned and I saw him grabbing my ankle as he said,

"Don't answer it."

"Too late."

I already had the phone in my hand and I laid back on the pillows as I answered. I heard Tai on the other end as he asked if I was okay since I told him I was going to take a few days off, but not as many as I had been taking. I saw Toki sitting up as he ran his hand along the inside of my leg and I was about to kick him off me since I was on the phone but he stopped before he passed my knee cap. He yawned as he looked over at the clock. He then looked back at me as he grabbed my other leg and pulled me down on the bed. I gasped suddenly as I heard Tai say,

"Are you all right?"

"Yeah, just surprised suddenly. Sorry."

I was struggling to keep Toki away from me but not make as much noise but slapping Toki's hand away from me under sheets proved to be a hard task. He pulled open the sheets I had gathered around my waist as he leaned down, spreading my thighs open as he kissed them, lapping at the skin softly as I sighed to myself. Damnit I hate it when he did that. It felt good. I grabbed a handful of his hair, warning him not to do anything else. I was on the damn phone he should know better. Actually he does, it's why he does this to me. I love how he tastes me, how he takes his time and does this on purpose to make me want him all the more. There are rumors of how Akio is the great seducer, the Playboy, master of his game. Toki says nothing and lets him have that glory...it makes me wonder if the only reason Akio knows that is by hanging around Toki. They are friends after all. Toki is in his own means, charming, seductive, so sweet when he wants something. And if he wants you he will do anything to get you in his bed...he will pick apart your brain, get under your skin, rape your soul if he has to, if that will get you in bed with him...and it usually does. There are few who say no to him. He sits up as he says

"Hang up."

I finish telling Tai that I couldn't come in, I was too exhausted and wasn't feeling well. Tai asked if he should send Jun over and I say no right away. Toki sits between my legs as he leans over me, his arms holding up his weight over me as he leans down to my throat and begins to suck and bite at the flesh. I already had a feeling I had more then one kiss mark there, thanks to him of course. He whispered against my ear again,

"Hang up."

I nodded as I thanked Tai for his concern and said I would call him later and I apologized again for not coming in. As I said this, I felt Toki's hand bring up my leg, his hand under my thigh as he started without me. So damn impatient I swear. I finally hung up just as Toki pushed himself me. I groaned for a moment and he waited, giving me time to adjust as I looked up at him and said,

"You're...you're so fucking impatient."

He laughed slightly leaning down to take my mouth as he said,

"Tell me you love me."

"You know I do. Stupid."

He smiled as I did, his mouth opening slightly as he bit my bottom lip and then he let go as he said,

"Tell me."

I pulled back his hair as I said,

"I love you Toki-chu."

He kissed me, our mouths opening to each other, our tongues brushing against each others as he began to move. I groaned into his kiss and our mouths separated as he said,

"I love you too."

He rocked inside me, back and forth, back and forth like waves against a boat, he moved slowly, every moment much longer and fulfilling then the first round we had. It was much slower this time, no frenzied rush...his hands holding me in place, my legs open for him...it was almost embarrassing when I think about how I leave myself vulnerable and open for him when I have all this damn power. All the power in the world, yet nothing against him. I moan loudly when he thrusted a little harder. It's like he saw me thinking and he wanted my mind to stay where it was, on him, on us, on said act. He started to move a little faster, his pace picked up as I rose my hips up to meet his thrusts. It made him moan and he reached to my arms, grabbing them around my biceps, right above my elbows as I grabbed his arms and looked at him, his hair falling around his face again, the blonde longer then the black. It moved back and forth like a shifting pattern of sand as I moved my body in time with his. He cursed, his head tilting back slightly as I groaned, clenching his arm harder as I felt myself starting to tense up, the inevitable approaching as I rose my legs up, my feet flat against the bed as I closed my eyes, my mouth open as I panted against each stroke, my whole body now moving either by my force or his. I took a deep breath when I felt him move at a slightly different angle and something inside me, like a flick of lighter went off and I came. I gripped his arms so tightly, my eyes closed as I saw light fill the room, swallowing my vision. When I started coming back down from my high, Toki was going to his, his eyes clenched tight as he gritted his teeth and finally, he cursed again before he came inside me for the second time that morning. I didn't feel anything but that pleasure, that ecstasy of that moment. He slowly moved off me before he laid down, his hands letting go of my arms as he laid beside me. My whole body felt tense and nothing else at the moment and I soon started to feel tired. I slumped further down into the bed as I heard Toki sit up and pick up his cigarettes and his lighter as he lit one and bean to smoke. I turned to my side, too exhausted to care about anything as I felt him move again, the sheets coming over my shoulder, his free hand sliding up the side of my body from my thigh to shoulder as his lips now stained with the smell of his cigarette came to the side of my mouth as he kissed me. I smiled slightly as I began to go to sleep, tired now and again, staying home.